in a sudden?!~

I don't know what happened. Just don't feel like blogging, not at all. Alot things happen. After I break with zhenzuo my heart breaked. I meet a new friend he's alex someone I like alot, we had alot of funs. Calling/SmS/Computer. We ever meet once, he promised me it won't be only once. and alot, more then once he promised he called. we quarrle alot time before. and patch. 1 day was bored. He said he will call me in awhile, it delay too long, so I went to bath. he called when I bathing. I told him awhile more then call, cause I bathing. He said okay. Right that time, my phone was going no battery, I put it in the room, and charge it, I forgotten about the call. The phone sucks. Was so soft till you cant hear anything. When I remember about it, I gone to room, I saw the phone have 3-5 miss call, I shocked, and sms-ed back him, and he said nevermind since I don't wanna answer. I don't dare to reply at it. Not even a bit of dares. At that time, its the end of us. Maple he does'nt talk to me, im scare of him suddenly, and dare not talk to him, scared he will leave once I talk to him IM SCARE! That time start its really the end, of us. Right now, The time I blogging I MISS HIM really much, when I typing this, im crying. really, its someting I miss alot, the feeling of missing siafei, my primary school friend p5. I love he really much, I leave school cause, when im crying he came and trying to told me not to cry, and teacher scolded him for busybody, thats a reason why I quit school. Right now, I missed siafei and alex I love them, they don't love me, I just sucks to be anyone GF! When ever I like someone, its impossiable for me to get a true love, that I loved someone truely, Right now, I only wish, GANDAR will forgive me for not replying, and answering. Im sorry! I didn't meant it. Very sorry! gandar ily really, alot things maked me changed. I had no boyfriend. But im despo for gandar to be my reallife boyfriend! Hes someone can make me heart fix, and break anytime. Too bad he had a GirlFriend that they walked cross alot thing's that it won't happen on me. Gandar, wish you and you're girlfriend forever loving. That's all what I can do. I told yongming alot thing's, I wish he won't say anything about it. GANDAR! i love you! Wish you and ur gf <3 forever. Happy starting, Sadden ending.

[Treated me as a toy: meet 1 times no other times. thats something im sure.]